I don’t like asking but I’m at the point where I really do need help.
I’m barely making it through each day alive. Trying my hardest to eat what my mother forces me to since I could very easily refuse but that wouldn’t end well for me. I’m slowly cutting deeper and deeper and I don’t really want to do that just right now since if I went too deep and needed to go to the hospital I’d be fucked.
I want to die so fucking badly.
I can’t do this alone and I really don’t want to bother you guys but this is like.. my last option.
I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future, and I know that at best this will probably just be a temporary fix to this and I’ll have to seriously address it all but.. for now..
You guys will probably ignore this post anyway but I had to make it.
I suck. I know.
Reblog it if you want. I just need help. From anyone. Everyone? No-one. This is actually embarrassing for me to write but .. if I want to stay alive I have to do this.
Honestly, the only reason I’m still here and what’s preventing me from relentless trying to kill myself and delete my tumblr/all traces of me if I can on the internet is you guys.. and I know that sounds ridiculous since I still try to kill myself anyway but.. yeah.. sorry.. that doesn’t even sound believable does it? it’s the truth though..