Bless Your Beautiful Heart.

strangestshadow:

strangestshadow:

I don’t like asking but I’m at the point where I really do need help.

I’m barely making it through each day alive. Trying my hardest to eat what my mother forces me to since I could very easily refuse but that wouldn’t end well for me. I’m slowly cutting deeper and deeper and I don’t really want to do that just right now since if I went too deep and needed to go to the hospital I’d be fucked.

I want to die so fucking badly.

I can’t do this alone and I really don’t want to bother you guys but this is like.. my last option.

I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future, and I know that at best this will probably just be a temporary fix to this and I’ll have to seriously address it all but.. for now..

You guys will probably ignore this post anyway but I had to make it.

Sorry.

I suck. I know.

Reblog it if you want. I just need help. From anyone. Everyone? No-one. This is actually embarrassing for me to write but .. if I want to stay alive I have to do this.

Honestly, the only reason I’m still here and what’s preventing me from relentless trying to kill myself and delete my tumblr/all traces of me if I can on the internet is you guys.. and I know that sounds ridiculous since I still try to kill myself anyway but.. yeah.. sorry.. that doesn’t even sound believable does it? it’s the truth though..

Last time I reblog this :S

Sorry for the useless spam.